Well

Well so many things have happened to me for the past few days . I am just a victim that has fallen into a predator's trap . That is how I can put it . I have been wondering has my life always been so perfect or is it that I am missing a star element in my life . That would mean so much to me if I can find it . Do I have a perfect life ? Do I have perfect friends ? but most importantly , Am I perfect that I should be ? Everyone would say that no one is perfect . Atleast we should try to be perfect right ? I guess that I have failed to do so . I am such a letdown with too many failures . This may affect the community that I am the chairman of it . I am not talking about class 3EN . I am talking about the public that made me the chairman to lead in bonding the community together . That's a big a role that I am not sure that I can handle it .

WORST DAY EVER IN MY 15 YEARS OF LIFE !

On 17 oct , so many bad things happened to me . Do I even deserve this ? Have I done anything wrong ? Am I a useless person ? Am I selfish and irresponsible ? This few questions has been taunting me ever since on that unfortunate friday . Is it wrong to watch a horror movie ? Is it even right to get punished for something that you did not do and you are just the class chairman . On that friday my class were all happy and excited as our a.maths teacher did not come to class . This means that we could use that hour or so to watch a movie . Before we played the movie , we asked permission from our form teacher . She said alright but the movie must be educational and not scary. Before a.maths it was chemistry . We got back our chemistry paper and I passed but distinction ! Then all the bad things happened when the a.maths period started . Aishah was crying her hearts out as she failed her chem paper . She was also scared as she is afraid on getting demoted . I don't want my best friend to be like this . I decided to console her as I sat with her . one of my class mate played a movie and I did not pay any attention to what movie were they playing . After Aishah felt better she went back to her place and watched the movie I then decided to watch the movie . It was shutter . I did not take any action as to stop the movie as my class were engrossed in it . It would be rude and my would like so hate me for stopping the movie . A few minutes later the mishap happened when mr. james entered the class and started enquiring about the movie . My class all said that it was a horror film . He then said that we weren't suppose to watch a horror film . he said that he was going to report this to mr felix wong ! He went out the class and a few minutes later , Khairul came to our class and said that mr wong wants to see the chairman and the vice-chairman . Mariska and I then headed to general office . Upon on our arrival mr wong started to scold us and kept on saying what the likelihood on our punishment would be . He said that I would get 10 demerit points and I would have to also go under council too . I was so scared . Mr wong was filled with arrogance ! I was so scared as mr wong kept on questioning me . That was when I started to shed tears . Mariska saw that and she told me to breathe I was trying to control . mr wong saw that and he gave us the statement form . As soon as I existed the office I started to cry my hearts out ! I kept on screaming . My whole class were there . They immediately came to me and tried to console me . I was so afraid . I kept on saying that my life is over and gone and ruined . Alex , Raja , Brenda , amalina and amanda entered the offfice to see mr wong . Yk kept on saying that it is going to be ok as they are inside as it is going to work .He said that it would work . As usual I kept on crying . It was like the worst cry ever ! Minutes later , Ms tay entered the office and she saw me cry . Awhile later , the rest existed the office but ms tay still inside and they told the class it did not work . I cried ! I did not know what to do . I wrote in the statemant form what happened . Ms tay existed the office and told me to stop crying . I was trying my hardest to stop . She then told mariska , khairul and me to submit the form to mr wong . We submitted and mr wong said that there might or might not be a punishment . We said thank you and left the class were already in class . Mariska and I went slowly to class . We felt so vewed . We then headed for the assembly in the hall . After that there was a exco meeting . It was a about the camp that would be held soon . During the break , I and raja and his band mates played captin's ball with basketball . It was so fun . I vented my frustration through it but it did not really work . We then went for the council meeting . That was when I told my exco members that I may quit . Rachel , then received a call and the rest went to collect the newspaper . I was alone in the room ...........................................................(SENSORED) .......................................................................................................................
SK and lansin were talking to me about life . Thanks but it did not work . Lansin told me that I am selfish and irresponsible . Thanks for telling me that . So I am selfish and irresponsible . I don't even know why I am still standing here ? I am simply useless and worthless . MY LIFE IS OVER , GONE AND RUINED !

Miserable A.MATHS MARK !!!!!

Today , blah blah blah ok whatever ! Oh no today was the damn day that we would find out the pathatic or the good results . All are like fine expect for the irritating and annoying a.maths . I feel like tearing the paper apart ! I failed ! Tommorrow will know the rest of the marks . don't feel like blogging today !

Crowned Chairman

On 13 oct I was like freaking busy ! Firstly it was my school's marking day and the students didn't need to attend school . Unfortunately I needed to . Do you know why . That is because I am involved in the school's open house for the pri 6 students . I mean like come on , I am suppose to be sleeping till 11 am and not getting up at 7 am ! When I got to school I was like pretty anxious to know my maths mark so I went to look out for Ms tay . There I found her in the com lap 1 . She seemed pretty moody as she told me to wait outside the com lap . Therefore I did not ask her for my marks . Later the councillors had a meeting . We had a half an hour break before touring around the stations . Therefore I went with mariska and amalina to look for ms tay . We found her but she seemed to be mad with me . She told me my marks and said that I am stilll not humble and it is stressing people up . I was like sad and depressed . We had a tirring tour and finally went back home . I got ready to go for my YLC 7 meeting . I met amalina at the mrt station and headed to the banquet for some dinner . We waited for my friends aishah and iznie and together headed to the cdac office . I was shocked on what the meeting was about . It was about the positions in YLC . There are four positioins and they are CHARIMAN,HEAD OF LOGISTICS , HEAD OF PROGRAM AND HEAD OF PUBLICITY . The next decision was that all of us had to vote on who is to be the next chairman . To my amusement , I was voted as the chairman . I was SHOCKED and at the same time happy . I had a meeting with the ex chairman and a senior . They told me the duties and the power that a chairman has .
The thing that made me run in circles was that whether I am the suitable person as the chairman . Ms tay said that I am not humble and it's a flaw . I really do not want this flaw to affect the work that I am assigned and that is I am organising and managing a big event with more than 5oo people attending . This is big . I am really so confused . What should I do ? Am I suitable ? I really do want this . But ...... I don't know ........
I just finished a proposal on the event . I am so confused . I..... am ...... so ..... confused ..... !

Someone annoying insulted me !

Today someone known to be a model in Singapore insulted me ! Sad ? Of course it is . Do you what he told ? Well what he said was that I am not cut out to be a model ! That is so insulting ! He said that I should seriously put on more foundation . Oh please , I belive that I looked better than his crappy face . I immediately called Raja and told him about this annoying model ! He went online and looked at his face and said that I am so much better looking than him . Well what can I say I am better ! He acted as if he was some supermodel and gave me his advice on how to groom myself . He said that I need to lose weight ! He called me fat ! Am I really fat and cut out to be a celebrity ? Well anyway , yesterday was my birthday . I celebrated my birthday with my friends on Friday (10 oct) . We had a fun and an exhilerating outing at the bowling alley . Next we all headed to bugis for some shopping . Raja , Shah , Amanda , Aishah and I tried to look for the stuff that we wanted . Aishah found a t-shirt that she wanted . Well the rest of us couldn't find anything . We all were hungry , therefore we headed to Mac to have our dinner . Amanda decided to head to orchard for some shopping . We all agreed . There I found my skinny jeans . I mean what's the point when you have skinny legs when you do not wear skinny jeans . Raja was running late as he had to go home . Therefore we all decided to go home . I really did have alot of fun . It was a great time ! Thank you guys for that wonderful outing . I also want to thank the excos for coming . Thank you guys !